All up in my feelings: Memories

I remember when you were a good man, with a pure heart and good intentions, intentions maybe not always reaching the point of an action but at least there was a thought.

I remember when you cared and you loved us and you loved being around us.

I remember a time when our feelings mattered to you, its a shame yours still matter to us.

I remember a time where it wasn't all spite with my childhood into adulthood being spiked with your lack of love for your life.

When will you grow? You have the age but not the wisdom.

How your brain once filled with unlimited knowledge has become a breeding ground for unlimited and ultimate stupidity, well, I'll never understand.

Can you sleep at night? Knowing now rather than being the man with a pure heart, good intentions and no action, you are the man with action but no heart or intention at all, just hate.

I don't sleep at night, thank you for taking that from us too.

So many lies to ruin someone else, are you not intelligent enough to understand that person had real love to keep it real with you?

Don't you see your actions are textbook?

Don't you understand everyone else is wise to the true colours of your heart?

I wish I could say I hate you but if I did I wouldn't spend all this time writing this message, someone has to get through to you before you well and truly dispose of everything that makes your life worth living.

Don't ruin the person you use to justify your actions because the person you are trying to ruin will not crumble under your control, she's free of you and your bitter venom, you will only sting yourself.

We have had enough of your despicable behaviour, for years you have treated her as subservient to you, have you still not learnt anything?

Hate for someone that you love, it's so sad that at your age you cannot step up, behave like an adult and speak your mind. Only an idiot wouldn't be able to see that's exactly what this situation is, I guess your surrounded by idiots who don't want you to progress in your life, idiots who don't realise they have been swayed by cheap talk and gossip to support your tirade of hatred.

Which leads me to ask, when will you right your wrongs?

When do you confess to the string of lies you used to get people on your side?

Because I remember...

I remember everything and I'm tired of holding back and cutting you some slack by not fighting back.

You don't deserve all you have.

Excuse the indirect but apparently being direct doesn't work with you.

You're not hurting the person you're trying to, maybe it's time for a different tactic. How about dropping your guard and keeping it real with her like she has with you. 

You still love her after all...

And at the end of the day the only one left in undying pain is the one who is completely innocent in all of this, I don't want you to ruin her.

I will not let her suffer at the hands of your misery, she deserves better than to be your second priority.

She doesn't deserve this, none of us did, we all suffered the same, but now you inflict pain for an invisible gain in this sick game that you continue to play.

The dream come true would be to see you as the actual you, when you strip your soul of your number one priority...

...Getting your own back. 

Instead of trying to get your own back you should try working on getting yourself back.

Ben Nye? Oh my!

Well, hello everyone...

I never indented to make this a blog where I do product reviews but to not talk about this product is absolutely sinful. This stuff is basically magic in a pot, today I'm talking about the Ben Nye Luxury Powder. 

Small disclaimer: this post is NOT sponsored (I wish it was because that would indicate my blog is relatively successful and reaching the masses, plus, ya'know I would be getting paid too which would be good right now...lol).

H O L Y C R A P !

For years and years I have stayed true to MAC face powders, not because I love them, because I really, really don't, but because I know what colour to ask for and it something that is easily accessible, sorry for the shade MAC, I just like your brushes and the colour range on your lipstick, though I also hate the formula for your lipsticks (so drying) so I don't buy them any more, double shade, whoopsie!

I love make up with a huge passion but I just hate how it looks on my skin, I hate that we cant all have that filtered to f*ck instagram beauty guru look and the thing I hate the most is that if you do achieve that look while messing around with all your products you are judged for it massively... *flashback to a time when I was meeting a friend I hadn't seen for ages for a drink, she always looked amazing so I made more of an effort than usual, though I didn't look overdone, just a vest and blazer some jeans and heels with a nice top handle bag and a simple but flawless fresh face of makeup then a man (strong use of the word man for this type of a-hole) shouted at me in the street 'who do you think you are a celebrity or something, you look ridiculous' then laughed and just shat all over my love for make up for a little while and made me feel like I was ridiculous for even thinking to leave my house looking nice for a change and THAT'S when some of the anxiety issues started btw*.

Now, I have a nose full of pores (wish I knew you couldn't reverse the damage when I was still doing the damage) I have a slight bit of rosacea on my cheeks, my skin almost always has a spot somewhere and I have a very mottled complexion (hate it). What this means is when I do get a good face of make-up going I also get freaked out because I actually look normal and my skin is all one colour... Resulting in me washing it all off and hiding in the hood of my coat behind my reading glasses, ahh anxiety.

That was until I purchased this powder, I have used it 5 times, once on a half day old face of make-up when testing my colour (cameo btw), once on my bare skin and 3 times with a fresh face of make-up. This powder is another level of amazing and I am actually flabbergasted at how much it lives up to the hype.

Its light/medium coverage in my opinion but because its such a fine powder it blends incredibly so its really build-able. My makeup actually lasted all day (for once), I used a primer & setting spray also but this powder didn't move, didn't collect in my pores or fine lines and I looked natural but my skin looked flawless and matte for the whole day, no touch ups required and even on the occasions I haven't used a setting spray it has still lasted impeccably especially using the 'baking' technique.

I am really impressed with this purchase, firstly this is going to last for absolutely AGES, no joke there is so much product in this tiny, tiny container, secondly it was really quite affordable, I paid £10.95 for this which I think is a great deal when you look at the fact it's a higher end product and finally, I am honestly just so relieved as a blogger (I haven't earned that title yet actually) but I am so relieved to have parted with my money on a product that actually lives up to its hype, I have spent so much money on so many products that have been promoted as holy grails in the past, its so nice to finally come across an actual holy grail product, now if someone can help with holy grail primers, foundations, concealers and lip colours that also live up to their hype that would be great (lol)...

I do love a good old selfie, so I have taken the liberty to attach some pictures below of the product on my face on the 2 most recent occasions I have used it. I have to admit, they're not the best pictures, they were taken on a phone, but this has convinced me to do a before and after so I can actually show you how amazing this product is! Keep an eye out for my next post, as always big massive love to the people to do take the time to read my thoughts and don't forget to subscribe to BASIC!

Savings 101: June

Today I am here to talk to you about monaay... again.

This is not a subject there is enough realistic advice on and I would like to change that. I have scrawled the internet many a time at ungodly hours to seek answers to my problems and I have never really found something I can relate to, something genuine with warts and all, you know? 

The fact of the matter is sh*t hits the fan and for most people (in my opinion) it happens rather frequently.

I like to be here and write what I do because I like to be helpful, I like people to know they're not alone and that there are normal people like myself out there who are in the same struggle, making the same mistakes and gracefully (not always gracefully) getting the sh*t end of the stick.

So let us embark on this life lesson together and let us stop being the person who draws the short straw every, single, time.

In this dwindling economy, where the hopes of ever being in a financially stable enough position to live seem to be evaporating before our eyes one must be prepared for everything and then a little bit more. The only way to have this safety net is to start building it yourself, they don't just hand them out to people like you and me unfortunately.

I have thought about this for a very long time and fear my plan may now be rather anti climatic, which on one hand is not ideal because I aim for my posts to be exciting, on the other hand, the fact this plan is quite boring also means it's very simple and straightforward.

So here is my little plan... I hope it helps me and of course I hope it helps you!

After much thought I have established the key to saving is putting away small amounts frequently, at least in my (unprofessional) opinion, this way you're less likely to f*ck it up and find yourself caught short. The second step I'll be taking is to put away whatever I have left at the end of the week, even if its £2.00 so I can build my savings on a continuous basis. Example, I get paid weekly, so on Thursday night I would transfer everything left in my current account to my savings and on Friday when I get paid I can start the process again. I am very fortunate to be in the position of having a fairly well paid job so I will also be looking at setting up a direct debit from my current account to my savings on top of everything I have mentioned above, but this won't be for another couple of months as all my annual bills come out around this time of year so it's a bit too hectic to implement everything at once, however when I do set this up, I think I would aim to get at least £25 a week going to my savings on top of everything else. 

Personally, I feel this would be the best way to start building my safety net and I feel it will be much more manageable than just winging it as I have been for all these years. As always I will keep you updated on how this journey is actually going and I will maintain complete honesty about how I am finding it because there is bound to be a hiccup somewhere for all of us!

As always my lovely readers I will see you in my next post!

Duty Free haul (I didn't get that much...)

Hi everyone, 

So as we all know I have just been to sunny Cyprus with the family for a nice little break, I had a lovely time and will have a post all about it at some point this week, but this post is going to be all about the little treats I picked up at duty free and on the plane (we all know that's why we love holidays).

Now, personally I don't really like duty free, because it doesn't really make a difference and I feel like I'm being conned into overspending, but once in a while, there is a deal that is really, really worth it, I find, wherever you go in the world, you almost ALWAYS get a good deal on an Elizabeth Arden 8 hour products at the airport or on the plane!

I got a trio which included; 

1.  Eight Hour Skin Cream Protectant
2.  Eight Hour Cream Lip Protectant Stick SPF 15
3.  Eight Hour Cream Intensive Moisturising Hand Treatment

This worked out to be £25.00 which isn't so bad, I didn't pay for this in Sterling so I'm not sure how much it came to in Euro's.

This second product is another skin care product, I have restrained myself from buying this easily over 100 times! I don't know why, I've tried the product, I know I like it but I always stop myself from buying it when I am about to pull my purse out. It is none other than Egyptian Magic.

 

In all honesty, I could have found a better deal in the UK but I brought it on a whim on the plane to use up the last of my Euro's, in Sterling it would have been £20.00 for 59ml on the plane, so not great considering for £29.00 at Boots you can get 118ml, however I finally pulled my purse out and purchased it and I am glad I did because I do love this product and now after about 5 years of avoiding buying it but wanting it, I have it. 

The next thing I brought was perfume, do I need another perfume? No. Am I addicted to things that smell nice? Yes. Was it a 2 for 1 deal and there was a for him and for her edition? Yes. Calvin Klein, CK One RED Edition for Her, the newest scent to grace my perfume collection and I got a matching bottle for the other half, Calvin Klein, CK One Red Edition for Him in total this amounted to 39.90 Euro. Now although I didn't need it (he did, his aftershave collection is limited), it has been my favourite purchase as it is soooo different from the perfumes I usually wear and both scents compliment each other well so you can be #ultimaterelationshipgoals when you're next out together.

 

  

Finally and most importantly, I brought some Lays Crisps in Salt and Vinegar, I brought 4 packets, 1 for my Mimi (grandma) as these are her favourite crisps and 3 for me because I am a fatarse. We all know Lays are the best and we all know I have already eaten all 3 of my packets and am restraining myself from eating the ones I brought for Mimi. 

  

And of course I brought some touristy shite while I was at the airport too, Cyprus key rings, lighters ect, ect, but most of the touristy gifts I did get were from different seafront shops across the Island in Paphos, Aiya Napa and Larnaca, believe me you're not short of these shops in Paphos!

Until next time my lovely readers...